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Its 7 a.m. and it’s still a toss up.
10/19/2007

I need to make a decision in a couple of hours.

I keep putting off making a decision, I am torn. I have checked the weather, checked the maps, checked the finances and still can’t figure out where to go and what to do.

I had a crappy day yesterday. I drove to work, I didn’t feel up to making the bus/walk so I drove the two days I worked this week. Thursday was fine, no problem finding a parking spot. Friday, I drove around the parking lots for 35 minuets trying to find a spot. I finally gave up and called the boss: I told her I was about to head back home, I had had enough. I was allowed to park in one of the 6 empty parking spots for my unit. It just pissed me off. I heard later in the day there are 2 reserved spots in the other garage for my unit, but someone is parking in them. I need to investigate; I wonder who that could be? It will take a little digging. There is a whole big parking issue, public spots disappearing, a secret process of getting a pass and no one wants to share information. I might just do an open records request to get the information I am looking for.

I got pissed off again when I was questioned why I didn’t include a murder in one of my spreadsheets. Gee, no one told me the guy died. “Oh, I guess I forgot to tell you” was the response. It is just a symptom of a larger problem I am dealing with lately. I know there is a change coming soon, but the fractures are already showing. I am tired of dealing with the lack of communication lately.

I was thinking in the morning: the frustrating days are out numbering the good days. I am keeping an eye on the job boards. I just talked to Mom: she said no decision was needed right now and explained that it would take about 6 month’s savings if I just wanted to quit. I don’t have that in savings right now so I am stuck for a little while. She remined me if I had a husband and two kids, this problem wouldn’t seem so major, I would have something else to focus on. She also suggested I head to Houston: go to the museums and make a weekend out of it. I am going to check the web for hotel rates.


	back \| up \| next Its 7 a.m. and it’s still a toss up. 10/19/2007 I need to make a decision in a couple of hours. I keep putting off making a decision, I am torn. I have checked the weather, checked the maps, checked the finances and still can’t figure out where to go and what to do. I had a crappy day yesterday. I drove to work, I didn’t feel up to making the bus/walk so I drove the two days I worked this week. Thursday was fine, no problem finding a parking spot. Friday, I drove around the parking lots for 35 minuets trying to find a spot. I finally gave up and called the boss: I told her I was about to head back home, I had had enough. I was allowed to park in one of the 6 empty parking spots for my unit. It just pissed me off. I heard later in the day there are 2 reserved spots in the other garage for my unit, but someone is parking in them. I need to investigate; I wonder who that could be? It will take a little digging. There is a whole big parking issue, public spots disappearing, a secret process of getting a pass and no one wants to share information. I might just do an open records request to get the information I am looking for. I got pissed off again when I was questioned why I didn’t include a murder in one of my spreadsheets. Gee, no one told me the guy died. “Oh, I guess I forgot to tell you” was the response. It is just a symptom of a larger problem I am dealing with lately. I know there is a change coming soon, but the fractures are already showing. I am tired of dealing with the lack of communication lately. I was thinking in the morning: the frustrating days are out numbering the good days. I am keeping an eye on the job boards. I just talked to Mom: she said no decision was needed right now and explained that it would take about 6 month’s savings if I just wanted to quit. I don’t have that in savings right now so I am stuck for a little while. She remined me if I had a husband and two kids, this problem wouldn’t seem so major, I would have something else to focus on. She also suggested I head to Houston: go to the museums and make a weekend out of it. I am going to check the web for hotel rates.