Its home instead of traveling this past weekend.
10/24/2007
There were a few factors: health, money and mood.
I am still feeling run down from the recent plague I had. I just got off the antibiotics and am starting to feel better, but I am not 100%. I have two other weekends planned soon: Nascar race weekend at Fort Worth and NYC a couple of weeks after that. I guess I am just trying to stretch myself too thin with too much booked to quickly. I am still in a funk; I am tossed between frustration, disappointment and tad of depression.
I was watching the web and it looks like Robby had a crappy weekend also: he flipped the off road truck on Friday. He missed practice but qualified fairly well in the cup car. On Sunday I watched the race on TV and cringed as he hit the wall pretty hard in the beginning of the race and then had to just circle the track for points. I also read yesterday that there was a medical emergency with his new crew chief; I will have to see if there are any updates on the web.
I had some thoughts about work this weekend. I talked to quite a few people and I think I now have a better plan on how to handle things. I need to stick it out for a few months and see what the changes bring. I need to get back to my routine: yoga a couple of times a week, church on Sunday morning and Saba to the park a couple of times after work during the week. I am looking for a group to get involved with. I need to start refocusing my energies. My Mom had a great thought about this, “if you had a husband and kids at home, the work stuff wouldn’t seem so important”. I guess she has a point.
I got interrupted typing this on Monday morning: the pager started bleeping. It was time to head into work early. It made for a longer Monday. When I got to the office, it was quite empty. There were not a lot of people their, it took quite a few hours for them all to show up. We were working an officer involved shooting, it makes it harder when you know some of the officers. It made it easier for some things, but made it harder for others. I wanted to call one of the officers on Tuesday but felt I might compromise things if I called. It is an uncomfortable spot to be in: Wanting to reach out and say I am concerned, but not being able too.
I talked to Dad last night. He had an eventful trip up north. It looks like we are going to be traveling on the same weekend shortly, but he will be further north and I will be at Moms. We will only be a couple of hours away. I wonder if I could sneak in a visit? Just a thought for now.
